January 2nd: "If he asked me, I would stay single."
Jan.
2nd, 1986 (Age 7, Somewhere in Canada)
Dear diary, today we slept at Howard Johnson. I had a good sleep. Except once, in the middle of the night, I woke up. Though I fell to sleep again.
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Thursday, January 2nd, 1992 (Age 13, Evansburg, New Hampshire)
Dear diary, today we slept at Howard Johnson. I had a good sleep. Except once, in the middle of the night, I woke up. Though I fell to sleep again.
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Thursday, January 2nd, 1992 (Age 13, Evansburg, New Hampshire)
I’m a major movie buff. I live for the
movies. I want to be an actress, even though I’ve never tried acting before. I
think I’d be good at it.
A
few days ago I went to the closest theater at Cook’s Corner, Brunswick
On
Tuesday I went to the same theater with Evangeline Fraser and her family to see Hook. I loved that movie. It had Robin
Williams as Peter Pan, Julia Roberts as Tinkerbell, and Dustin Hoffman as
Captain Hook. Robin Williams is my favorite actor – I love all of his movies. I
just got Dead Poets Society for
Christmas.
Today
my friend Sonia Gallio lent me her copy of the Disney version of Robin Hood. I thought I had never seen
it before, but I recognized most of the parts.
My
favorite song right now is “Losing My Religion” by R.E.M. I just borrowed two
of their albums from Tiff Barnes and recorded them for myself. They were Out of Time and Document.* * * * *
Saturday, January 2nd, 1993 (Age 14, Evansburg)
Adam Deets just called! Yes, yes, yes! I thought he would never call back. Oooo! He's almost seventeen. I lied and told him I was fifteen. No harm done. He doesn't sound as talkative and outgoing as in his letters. He probably couldn't think of anything to say to me. He told me he was going to send me a letter, and apologized for not calling or writing sooner. I wonder what he looks like?
Joe sent me a telephone answering machine! I can't wait to hook it up and make a message. Maybe I'll use a line off of the TV or a Monty Python tape. Yeah, that would be good.
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Sunday, January 2nd, 1994 (Age 15, Nagasaki, Japan)
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Monday, January 2nd, 1995 (Age 16, Nagasaki)
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Tuesday, January 2nd, 1996 (Age 17, Nagasaki)
I
have to get used to writing this new date. We went to the base, this time it really was for the last time,
and I bought a smaller suitcase so I won’t have to lug my huge one to London
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Thursday, January 2nd,
1997 (Age 18, Exton, New Brunswick)
I discovered we have
something on our computer called Net Meeting, which allows you to chat or talk
through the microphone to people all over the world. I was doing it all day, talking to Japanese
people.
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Friday, January 2nd, 1998 (Age 19, Exton)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2000 (Age 21, Kobe, Japan)
We decided we're going to go to city hall to get our marriage license on the 6th. Tonight we all went to a Korean yakiniku restaurant. In the afternoon Sei's mother, sister-in-law Emi and I put on kimono and took pictures. I used Emi's from before she was married. It was my first time to wear one.
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Tuesday, January 2nd, 2001 (Age 22, Kobe)
It's late, but I'm feeling very content because I've just finished filing all the photos I have in the world into new photo albums. My back is killing me. I've been meaning to organize them for two years. Tomorrow my brother is leaving to go back to the U.S. I know after he goes I'm going to regret that I didn't spend more time with him. Half the time he was holed up in his room (his choice) playing video games. Tomorrow's also my last day of freedom before returning to the hell job. I didn't make any new lesson plans. My next long holiday's not until May.
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Wednesday, January 2nd, 2002 (Age 23, Kobe)
I just watched Tomb Raider. Allen brought the DVD with him from America. It's not out on video here yet. This year I'm going to get a body like Angelina Jolie's. We went to eat fugu tonight. Allen only has one more day here. I wonder if he'll come next Christmas?
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Thursday, January 2nd, 2003 (Age 24, Kobe)
It's down to 48 degrees in our bedroom. We stayed home all day. I caught up on my cleaning and internet stuff, and I took down the Christmas tree and decorations. I smashed my right index finger in the door of the garbage cage outside. It started to turn blue and swell up, but Sei put a bandage around it and that helped. It hurts like hell, though.
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Friday, January 2nd, 2004 (Age 25, Kobe)
I'm in agony, bent over double with horrible cramps. Luckily I didn't have them earlier when we went visiting extended family and to the cemeteries. My period wasn't supposed to start for another few days. I'm going to try calling my dad now.
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2005 (Age 26, Kobe)
Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007 (Age 28, London, UK
My eye still wasn't doing much better this morning but we had to clear out of Yuji's ex's apartment because I think she's coming back tomorrow. We drove out to the country again for lunch. We ate at a pub called The Tap and Barrel which had two adorable donkeys in the garden. I felt much better after that and as I'm writing this my eye feels completely fine, so I hope it lasts.
We hit three bars in Soho and managed to get a lot of talking done, and without saying the actual words he seems to agree that we're in love, but are going to do nothing about it for now. I finally found a way to express what I wanted to say to him -- that I didn't want to pressure him, but if he asked me to please stay single at least until he comes back to Japan in April, then I would stay single. He was so happy. Surprisingly, after coming here and all, he still wasn't sure if I even felt about him that way or not. He keeps wishing he had met me ten years ago but I tell him we both would have been different people and this is a much better time.
It's too bad I have to leave the day after tomorrow just when we're getting to know each other, but like in November, I'll try not to be too sad.
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Friday, January 2nd, 1998 (Age 19, Exton)
I’m back in New Brunswick. When I woke at
5:00 a.m. to get ready, Linda was in the bathroom. When I got in I was huffing
around and puffing to myself because I thought my dad had invited her to drive
to the airport with us. I got in a better mood once I realized that wasn’t the
case. I don’t know when I’ll see Dad and Allen again, but it won’t be for a
long time.
From Toronto they made me take my cat Juno on the plane with me because
they thought it would be too cold in the baggage hold. He meowed a lot, but not
the whole time.
Now I’m back at the apartment. It’s a disaster zone and should be
condemned as a health hazard, but my friends met me with good news – my evil roommate
Fiona has run off to Calgary with her new boyfriend and isn’t coming back (for
now, at least). They want me to sublet this place to them, and then I’ll be
able to leave with no more responsibilities!
I’m thinking of going to bed early so tomorrow will come sooner, bringing Sei with it.
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Saturday, January 2nd, 1999 (Age 20, Exton)
I’m thinking of going to bed early so tomorrow will come sooner, bringing Sei with it.
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Saturday, January 2nd, 1999 (Age 20, Exton)
This
morning I went to the mall to buy Sei a pillow. I gave my
brother mine and then I took his, so he doesn’t have one.
Tonight Yuko and I went to the movies. I chose The Faculty, but it was a mistake because we didn’t know it was a horror movie. Afterwards we went back to her place and drank. She’s dating Guy Leung, one of the students from Hong Kong now, but I don’t think it will last. He’s too immature.
Tonight Yuko and I went to the movies. I chose The Faculty, but it was a mistake because we didn’t know it was a horror movie. Afterwards we went back to her place and drank. She’s dating Guy Leung, one of the students from Hong Kong now, but I don’t think it will last. He’s too immature.
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2000 (Age 21, Kobe, Japan)
We decided we're going to go to city hall to get our marriage license on the 6th. Tonight we all went to a Korean yakiniku restaurant. In the afternoon Sei's mother, sister-in-law Emi and I put on kimono and took pictures. I used Emi's from before she was married. It was my first time to wear one.
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Tuesday, January 2nd, 2001 (Age 22, Kobe)
It's late, but I'm feeling very content because I've just finished filing all the photos I have in the world into new photo albums. My back is killing me. I've been meaning to organize them for two years. Tomorrow my brother is leaving to go back to the U.S. I know after he goes I'm going to regret that I didn't spend more time with him. Half the time he was holed up in his room (his choice) playing video games. Tomorrow's also my last day of freedom before returning to the hell job. I didn't make any new lesson plans. My next long holiday's not until May.
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Wednesday, January 2nd, 2002 (Age 23, Kobe)
I just watched Tomb Raider. Allen brought the DVD with him from America. It's not out on video here yet. This year I'm going to get a body like Angelina Jolie's. We went to eat fugu tonight. Allen only has one more day here. I wonder if he'll come next Christmas?
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Thursday, January 2nd, 2003 (Age 24, Kobe)
It's down to 48 degrees in our bedroom. We stayed home all day. I caught up on my cleaning and internet stuff, and I took down the Christmas tree and decorations. I smashed my right index finger in the door of the garbage cage outside. It started to turn blue and swell up, but Sei put a bandage around it and that helped. It hurts like hell, though.
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Friday, January 2nd, 2004 (Age 25, Kobe)
I'm in agony, bent over double with horrible cramps. Luckily I didn't have them earlier when we went visiting extended family and to the cemeteries. My period wasn't supposed to start for another few days. I'm going to try calling my dad now.
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2005 (Age 26, Kobe)
We took Penn up
the mountain for a couple hours. I love that place. It’s about the only nature
in our immediate vicinity. We took a wrong turn and ended up climbing stone steps
for half a mile, but at least it was easy coming down!
A few days ago I got my Christmas card from Maria. In it she talks about her kids and says that Timmy is “very unpleasant” and “like a devil.” She’s nicknamed him The Antichrist. I don’t know what the situation is but I really worry for Timmy, because surely he knows what his mother thinks of him. I keep thinking I want to have him here for a holiday on his own, but that might be biting off more than I can chew if he really does have psychological problems. I might ask for Alexa’s advice.
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Monday, January 2nd, 2006 (Age 27, Kobe)
A few days ago I got my Christmas card from Maria. In it she talks about her kids and says that Timmy is “very unpleasant” and “like a devil.” She’s nicknamed him The Antichrist. I don’t know what the situation is but I really worry for Timmy, because surely he knows what his mother thinks of him. I keep thinking I want to have him here for a holiday on his own, but that might be biting off more than I can chew if he really does have psychological problems. I might ask for Alexa’s advice.
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Monday, January 2nd, 2006 (Age 27, Kobe)
Sei went to
his house and then to his friend's, but I just wanted to stay home. I watched some
TV and chatted with Mandy, then took Penn for a walk by the river.
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Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007 (Age 28, London, UK
My eye still wasn't doing much better this morning but we had to clear out of Yuji's ex's apartment because I think she's coming back tomorrow. We drove out to the country again for lunch. We ate at a pub called The Tap and Barrel which had two adorable donkeys in the garden. I felt much better after that and as I'm writing this my eye feels completely fine, so I hope it lasts.
We hit three bars in Soho and managed to get a lot of talking done, and without saying the actual words he seems to agree that we're in love, but are going to do nothing about it for now. I finally found a way to express what I wanted to say to him -- that I didn't want to pressure him, but if he asked me to please stay single at least until he comes back to Japan in April, then I would stay single. He was so happy. Surprisingly, after coming here and all, he still wasn't sure if I even felt about him that way or not. He keeps wishing he had met me ten years ago but I tell him we both would have been different people and this is a much better time.
It's too bad I have to leave the day after tomorrow just when we're getting to know each other, but like in November, I'll try not to be too sad.
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