January 30th: Too shy to dance.
Jan.
30th, 1986 (Age 7, Evansburg, New Hampshire)
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1/30/88 (Age 9, Evansburg)
Dear Diary, I don’t know what’s wrong with Andrea. She’s so...dumb! She’s mad at me again just because I didn’t want to finish this dumb test thing in a magazine. Emma was sick yesterday. I played with Sue instead. We were sliding on the ice and I slipped and hurt my knee. I can’t wait for February. I'm trying to write a long entry today. I wish I could change my calendar today instead of on February 1st. I think I will! Or maybe not. No. Not until the 1st. My ghost Percy is talking to me, but I can’t tell what he’s saying. My bear poster keeps falling down. I wish I could get some glass animal figurines like Emma has.
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Thursday, January 30th, 1992 (Age 13, Evansburg)
I stayed home
again today. I just woke up. I was asleep for almost two hours. Now it’s 1:27. I
have to go back to school tomorrow, but I don’t mind. I think we'll be getting our report cards. I hope so, because I’ve been broke for a long time. I hate asking my
dad for money. He gives me $5 for every “A” I get on my report card, and I
usually get all “A’s.” There’s so much I want to buy! I owe my brother $2.00,
and I want to buy two double picture frames, an R.E.M. tape, and maybe the
movie Hot Shots. I definitely want to
get more Disney movie mugs. I want to have a collection of them.
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Saturday, January 30th, 1993 (Age 14, Evansburg)
It's 11:55 p.m. and I'm just getting home from babysitting the Valentines. They paid me $15 tonight, so now i have a little cash to replace all the money I spent earlier today.
We went to the mall, where I bought a striped shirt, an R.E.M. t-shirt, a necklace, three goldfish (argh!), and a plant for the fish tank.
The striped shirt has, well...er...stripes of black, white, blue, red, green and gold made into different patterns. Infra-spiffy. The R.E.M. shirt is black with the Automatic for the People album cover on the front and the titles of the songs written in glorious psychedelia on the back. The necklace is a gold hand holding a crystal ball. I think Angel has the same one.
The fish: silver is Munsey, gold with black back is Dagwood, and gold with black-tipped fin is Finnigan. They'd better live. I'm getting too used to dead goldfish.
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Sunday, January 30th, 1994 (Age 15, Nagasaki, Japan)
I went to the '50s dance club tonight with my parents. I think I do this just torture myself. At one point everyone in the room was dancing but me. One of the band members kept looking over at me -- I could almost smell his pity. The girls at the table next to ours did invite me to go shake a leg with them, but I declined on the grounds of embarrassment. Even my parents abandoned me. I swear, once I get out of here I'm never going to let life pass me by again.
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Monday, January 30th, 1995 (Age 16, Nagasaki)
This would have been the first day back at school if I were there. It was only going to be from 10:00 to 2:00 anyway. I'm flying back to Kobe Wednesday night, and I might be going to Jess' house in Nagoya next weekend. I'm not dreading going back like I was before, even if there is no running water. At least I'll be able to see Sei. He bought a motor scooter, so he's going to ride over to see me on Thursday. I can't wait to see him. I've actually almost forgotten what he looks like. Today I passed someone in the arcade and I got a whiff of a smell that reminded me of him.
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Tuesday, January 30th, 1996 (Age 17, Kobe, Japan)
Saturday, January 30th, 1993 (Age 14, Evansburg)
It's 11:55 p.m. and I'm just getting home from babysitting the Valentines. They paid me $15 tonight, so now i have a little cash to replace all the money I spent earlier today.
We went to the mall, where I bought a striped shirt, an R.E.M. t-shirt, a necklace, three goldfish (argh!), and a plant for the fish tank.
The striped shirt has, well...er...stripes of black, white, blue, red, green and gold made into different patterns. Infra-spiffy. The R.E.M. shirt is black with the Automatic for the People album cover on the front and the titles of the songs written in glorious psychedelia on the back. The necklace is a gold hand holding a crystal ball. I think Angel has the same one.
The fish: silver is Munsey, gold with black back is Dagwood, and gold with black-tipped fin is Finnigan. They'd better live. I'm getting too used to dead goldfish.
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Sunday, January 30th, 1994 (Age 15, Nagasaki, Japan)
I went to the '50s dance club tonight with my parents. I think I do this just torture myself. At one point everyone in the room was dancing but me. One of the band members kept looking over at me -- I could almost smell his pity. The girls at the table next to ours did invite me to go shake a leg with them, but I declined on the grounds of embarrassment. Even my parents abandoned me. I swear, once I get out of here I'm never going to let life pass me by again.
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Monday, January 30th, 1995 (Age 16, Nagasaki)
This would have been the first day back at school if I were there. It was only going to be from 10:00 to 2:00 anyway. I'm flying back to Kobe Wednesday night, and I might be going to Jess' house in Nagoya next weekend. I'm not dreading going back like I was before, even if there is no running water. At least I'll be able to see Sei. He bought a motor scooter, so he's going to ride over to see me on Thursday. I can't wait to see him. I've actually almost forgotten what he looks like. Today I passed someone in the arcade and I got a whiff of a smell that reminded me of him.
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Tuesday, January 30th, 1996 (Age 17, Kobe, Japan)
My roommate Ikuko got accepted to her first choice college, Northeastern in Boston
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Thursday, January 30th, 1997 (Age 18, Exton, New Brunswick)
I think I got a job! It's telemarketing, selling newspaper subscriptions. Tomorrow I go for my interview and training. If I get it, it'll take up all my weekday evenings from 5:00 to 9:00, so I'll miss my nightly dinner with Sei. I still want to meet him every day.
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Friday, January 30th, 1998 (Age 19, Exton)
I went down to the building manager's office myself. The woman I spoke with was understanding; she said that they were only worried that we didn't know or didn't care that we had money owing, but as long as we are aware of it and planning to get it paid eventually, we don't have to worry about being thrown out. Let's just hope she remembers she said that. It turns out that the only money overdue is the October rent which Fiona ran off with, and the window that Andrew broke. Hopefully Fiona's parents will pay. I'm going to go see them tomorrow. Unfortunately I'll probably end up paying for the huge window that her stupid ex-boyfriend smashed while I was in Ireland.
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Saturday, January 30th, 1999 (Age 20, Exton)
I went on a huge $200 shopping spree at the mall, and the amazing thing is that I could afford it. I bought black boots, a denim mini skirt, a black mini skirt, two calendars and tights.
Evangeline called me today. In a contest at her college her boyfriend James won two free cruise tickets to the Bahamas, so she gets to go again!
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Sunday, January 30th, 2000 (Age 21, Exton)
I did a lot of things today, but the most important is that I called my dad and learned that Allen failed his air force course and can't do computers anymore. He was only a month away from finishing and Dad said he sounded really depressed. I wish he had called me himself. He's smart and I don't know why he can't do well in school. Failing so often will make him feel like he's stupid and no good, but that's just not true. I know I was mad and frustrated at him when he was here living with me, but if he came back I would take better care of him. They'll reassign him to a new career but I hope he chooses a good one. My dad's afraid he'll do police work. I remember when that's what Sei wanted to do and it really scared me. I don't think Allen will be able to come to the wedding.
Mandy just called. She finally talked to Evangeline and they'll probably fly up here together.
I went to see the movie Angela's Ashes. I read the book by Frank McCourt last summer and both were good. I also started taking the birth control pill today, and already I feel strange, almost barren. I don't know why. I wonder when the Pill will become an over-the-counter medicine?
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Tuesday, January 30th, 2001 (Age 22, Kobe)
I'm breaking out all over! I've got about five pimples on my face and they're impossible to cover up. I think it's because my period started.
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Wednesday, January 30th, 2002 (Age 23, Kobe)
I spent the afternoon and evening at Sei's parents' house on the computer. I found somebody who has traced the Cavalls of Rowan County, North Carolina back to Lancaster County, Pennsylvania. The ancestors' names were John Cavall and his brother Robert, and their family came to America from somewhere in Ireland in 1728. I don't know if this is the same lineage as my Cavalls of Orange County, though. I haven't been able to make any connection yet.
I talked with Sei's parents about money and they said I should tell them if I need any. I got another phone bill for 10,000 yen but this one is of calls to Mexico! I thought it must be a mistake but his mom thinks he's been calling sex lines. He'd better not be, when he knows we have no money, and if he wants sex he should just come to bed earlier!
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Thursday, January 30th, 2003 (Age 24, Kobe)
I'm going to have to start keeping my diary someplace other than the chest of drawers in my bedroom. That thing is infested with microscopic wood lice, and every night my diary is covered in them. I've been keeping all my paper documents in that chest, so I don't know how I'm going to get them cleaned up.
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Friday, January 30th, 2004 (Age 25, Kobe)
On Monday I cancelled my violin lesson, and I thought I had rescheduled it for today when actually it was for next Friday. So instead Sei, who had neither work nor school, and I ate dinner at my favorite Italian restaurant. I ate too much and didn't feel well. He went on to the Dublin Tavern afterward but I came home. I've had a slight headache all day so I'm going to bed.
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Sunday, January 30th, 2005 (Age 26, Kobe)
I went to Sannomiya to buy new piano books for one of my students. She's finished the first book but there's no way she's ready for Book Two. I got her a really easy one so we can work on understanding notes. Basically after nine months she still knows nothing! I also splurged while I was out and bought black Levi's corduroy pants. I'm so tired of wearing jeans every day, but none of my skirts look good and I feel too dressed up.
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Monday, January 30th, 2006 (Age 27, Kobe)
No major news for today. Sei has gone out to who knows where and doesn't answer his phone, so I won't expect him back till morning.
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Tuesday, January 30th, 2007 (Age 28, Kobe)
Lately I find myself thinking that, although I'm physically attracted to Yuji more than anyone else since I first met Sei, I probably could find true happiness with Kai. I could see him fitting right in with my family and where I'm from. We've both seen our share of problems, had to pinch pennies, but are now living relatively comfortably and have become good, kind, strong people. I can see us having the cutest children and raising them in a house full of music and laughter.
Disclaimer: This blog is a work of non-fiction. Most personal names (except for those of celebrities) and place names have been changed to protect the privacy of the individuals.
Thursday, January 30th, 1997 (Age 18, Exton, New Brunswick)
I think I got a job! It's telemarketing, selling newspaper subscriptions. Tomorrow I go for my interview and training. If I get it, it'll take up all my weekday evenings from 5:00 to 9:00, so I'll miss my nightly dinner with Sei. I still want to meet him every day.
* * * * *
Friday, January 30th, 1998 (Age 19, Exton)
I went down to the building manager's office myself. The woman I spoke with was understanding; she said that they were only worried that we didn't know or didn't care that we had money owing, but as long as we are aware of it and planning to get it paid eventually, we don't have to worry about being thrown out. Let's just hope she remembers she said that. It turns out that the only money overdue is the October rent which Fiona ran off with, and the window that Andrew broke. Hopefully Fiona's parents will pay. I'm going to go see them tomorrow. Unfortunately I'll probably end up paying for the huge window that her stupid ex-boyfriend smashed while I was in Ireland.
* * * * *
Saturday, January 30th, 1999 (Age 20, Exton)
I went on a huge $200 shopping spree at the mall, and the amazing thing is that I could afford it. I bought black boots, a denim mini skirt, a black mini skirt, two calendars and tights.
Evangeline called me today. In a contest at her college her boyfriend James won two free cruise tickets to the Bahamas, so she gets to go again!
* * * * *
Sunday, January 30th, 2000 (Age 21, Exton)
I did a lot of things today, but the most important is that I called my dad and learned that Allen failed his air force course and can't do computers anymore. He was only a month away from finishing and Dad said he sounded really depressed. I wish he had called me himself. He's smart and I don't know why he can't do well in school. Failing so often will make him feel like he's stupid and no good, but that's just not true. I know I was mad and frustrated at him when he was here living with me, but if he came back I would take better care of him. They'll reassign him to a new career but I hope he chooses a good one. My dad's afraid he'll do police work. I remember when that's what Sei wanted to do and it really scared me. I don't think Allen will be able to come to the wedding.
Mandy just called. She finally talked to Evangeline and they'll probably fly up here together.
I went to see the movie Angela's Ashes. I read the book by Frank McCourt last summer and both were good. I also started taking the birth control pill today, and already I feel strange, almost barren. I don't know why. I wonder when the Pill will become an over-the-counter medicine?
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Tuesday, January 30th, 2001 (Age 22, Kobe)
I'm breaking out all over! I've got about five pimples on my face and they're impossible to cover up. I think it's because my period started.
* * * * *
Wednesday, January 30th, 2002 (Age 23, Kobe)
I spent the afternoon and evening at Sei's parents' house on the computer. I found somebody who has traced the Cavalls of Rowan County, North Carolina back to Lancaster County, Pennsylvania. The ancestors' names were John Cavall and his brother Robert, and their family came to America from somewhere in Ireland in 1728. I don't know if this is the same lineage as my Cavalls of Orange County, though. I haven't been able to make any connection yet.
I talked with Sei's parents about money and they said I should tell them if I need any. I got another phone bill for 10,000 yen but this one is of calls to Mexico! I thought it must be a mistake but his mom thinks he's been calling sex lines. He'd better not be, when he knows we have no money, and if he wants sex he should just come to bed earlier!
* * * * *
Thursday, January 30th, 2003 (Age 24, Kobe)
I'm going to have to start keeping my diary someplace other than the chest of drawers in my bedroom. That thing is infested with microscopic wood lice, and every night my diary is covered in them. I've been keeping all my paper documents in that chest, so I don't know how I'm going to get them cleaned up.
* * * * *
Friday, January 30th, 2004 (Age 25, Kobe)
On Monday I cancelled my violin lesson, and I thought I had rescheduled it for today when actually it was for next Friday. So instead Sei, who had neither work nor school, and I ate dinner at my favorite Italian restaurant. I ate too much and didn't feel well. He went on to the Dublin Tavern afterward but I came home. I've had a slight headache all day so I'm going to bed.
* * * * *
Sunday, January 30th, 2005 (Age 26, Kobe)
I went to Sannomiya to buy new piano books for one of my students. She's finished the first book but there's no way she's ready for Book Two. I got her a really easy one so we can work on understanding notes. Basically after nine months she still knows nothing! I also splurged while I was out and bought black Levi's corduroy pants. I'm so tired of wearing jeans every day, but none of my skirts look good and I feel too dressed up.
* * * * *
Monday, January 30th, 2006 (Age 27, Kobe)
No major news for today. Sei has gone out to who knows where and doesn't answer his phone, so I won't expect him back till morning.
* * * * *
Tuesday, January 30th, 2007 (Age 28, Kobe)
Lately I find myself thinking that, although I'm physically attracted to Yuji more than anyone else since I first met Sei, I probably could find true happiness with Kai. I could see him fitting right in with my family and where I'm from. We've both seen our share of problems, had to pinch pennies, but are now living relatively comfortably and have become good, kind, strong people. I can see us having the cutest children and raising them in a house full of music and laughter.
Disclaimer: This blog is a work of non-fiction. Most personal names (except for those of celebrities) and place names have been changed to protect the privacy of the individuals.
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